" It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not."

  Okay..Its been ages since I've written I've been awfully bussy and just really didn't want to write because I thought noone would read it anyways..

  The quote..I put down I got from seventeen magazine and I think it is so true! Too many people now a days are FAKE! I know some of my friends were and it scares me because I think about it and how in 6 months or so me and all my classmates will be graduating..I don't belive that some of them will be able to make it in college..I can see some of them just going to the parties and flunking out of college when I know they can do better! I pray that some of them will open their eyes and see that like is not just a party..College is not highschool!

I have lost some friends over the past few weeks because they are not like me and I feel pressured to do stuff around them when I shouldn't be! Atleast 4 to 6 of my friends are not like me anymore we don't have the same goals or interest anymore. Some of the friends I grew up w/my whole life and I know they are ruining their lives by some of the things they are doing...I love each and every one of them dearly, but how do I know they are my friends. How do I know they are not talking about me behind my back?

Anyways...I had to get that out of my system! Saturday night we won our first ever playoff game the score was 14 to 27...And we are playing again this friday for semi-finals. YAH!

"It is such a secret place, the land of tears."

Okay So I haven't been able to write in my xanga since ummm be4 school started! Its okay though its not like anyone keeps up w/my life anyways! I'm a SENIOR~ Still don't believe it at all!!! Alrighty...

School has been crazy! Every class is sooo hard well A day clases are! B day classes let me breath a lil there not as stressing! So I'm hoping I will pass Pre-Cal and English! Other than that school is ok..I really have not been able to go sit at lunch since literally the first day of school! I have tooo many meetings to attend!  Thats good, but also upsetting! I'm starting to apply for colleges even though I still have to take the SAT again be4 I send in the applications I think I'm going to also take the ACT in October...I need to sign up for that! Well...Wish me good luck on all that!

Drill Team is crazy w/every football game to go to...Well this past week we went to watch Hardin Jefferson and Silsbee play! I like their dances and they actually have bands! Unlike us! I got invited to go to Frat party for the past two nights and also to some guy's apartment! Which Kristyn I am truly sorry! I love you! I will make it up! I did have fun though  Senior is actually pretty good I guess! I am talking to hmm..1,2,3,4,5...guys I think! I'm single and luvin it for the first time! haha!

I feel sooo bad for wuts going on w/the hurricane and everything! If you can give wut you can! I am so grateful for what I have now! If you want to work I have a # you can call to help w/the Salvation Army and all that! Let me know...

So...I am exahausted from this whole week..And there is a ton to say, but I don't have all night..And some of it shouldn't be mentioned on here! hehe   If ya really wanna know call me!

Smooches

"Keep your friends closer and your enemies closer."

        So...I'm hoping certain people read this! First of I'm not a slut and all of my friends would agree w/me..Today has been crazy! Well..this week has been crazy! School started on Monday and let me just say it is insane...I don't know if its just my senior year and that is why it is hard as hell right now or wut?!?

Jessica and I went out tonight...She totally made my day  Thanxs babe! We went out and rented "Man of the House" It was good oh and we went to get me some gummie bears at TCBY...hehe! Then we went to my house and watched it w/my sis! Well...that ended about 8ish and so then we went and drove around and got hit on in W-mart....eww!!!

Well..she just drop me off and I've just been talking w/my sis! I remember her telling me a long time ago when she was my age that I should never date guys! I thought she was totally ridiculous...Now I think she was totally right! Guys are such jerks and yeah I know gurls are too sometime, but the guys always blame everything on the gurl and like she is a lil whore! Well most of the time they aint! GOSH!

 So...back to school it has been pretty good...English and Pre-Cal are like the hardest classes for me! Everything else is Bible, Gov. Eco, Comp., and T.A. is pretty simple! I'm kinda planning on doing good this year! Hopefully So once I turn 18 I can seriously go out and have fun! woo~

  Well I'm heading out..If you don't have anything nice to say don't say it at all..That wut my mommy use to say

 I LOVE YALL

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." -Albert Einstein

It has been so crazy! School is about to start and I don't believe it! My dad and I are looking at cars! Yeah! I finally get one...Well hopefully soon  So everyday these past 2 weeks I have had practice like crazy!!! My body is dead and I am so close to having a split its getting aggrivating!

I got a outfit for the first day of school...If you see me at school the first day you have to be like woah Joanna that is an awsome outfit! And yall who haven't seem my hair will see it! Debating on weather to straighten it or scrunch it...Have any suggestions??!? i still have to get all my makeup for drill team I'm going to be spending about $40.00 on just eyeshadow and eyeliner! Dude we look HOT! Well....not really w/all the makeup we look like Christian Prostitutes..hehe  

Besides drill team I really don't have too much to talk about! No guy in my life I think thats good! I mean come on now I'm always w/someone I need a break to think! I can stilll look, but I'm not getting serious anytime soon!  Nah...I haven't done anything! Oh well...maybe I should do my English...I read the book now I just have 5 papers to do! YEAH! Alright...Well I'm going to try and keep up w/my journal instead of waiting every few weeks!

  MWAH

"I was finally getting over you beleiven we were through,I even had a crushes on others than you,I was walking w/my head high thinkin it wall all through,but then you had to go smile at me and ruin it all!"

   That is how I feel right now.....If only it was easy to get over someone....I think that no matter who you date or what you do with your time. That first person you fell in love with will never get off your mind. Most of yall know I dated Matt Harrell. We dated for awhile a long time...Anyways and I broke up w/him now I can't stop wondering how he is doing, does he miss me, does he even care for me anymore...

Well yesterday I got a letter from him! I cried on the phone w/Stacie for awhile! Which I love you gurl for understnading and being there for me! What sucked though is that I had to go to drill team and help teach dances and other stuff yesterday! I faked a smile the whole time! Then Stacie invited me to go putt putt w/her and Nick, and Matt...(another Matt) Which like I'm good friends w/all of them maybe they can make me feel better! So we went to buffalo wild wings and ate...I didn't I kinda sat there and listened and then tried to talk and forget about Matt and I have a good time w/my friends! Then Stacie and I sat in the back and sang songs while the guys were in the front singing too...It helped so much...Then I tried to call my dad cause I wanted to spend the night at Stacie...but Icouldn't get ahold of him!  so we went to the mall and hung out...Just walked around. Then they went to take me home at like 9 and no one was hime...and it was sooooo freaky last night....I told them to take me to Stacie's house cause I hate being home alone in that weather...So went to Stacie's and played pool. Dude! I made the first shot! and we lost the white ball cause of me...Sorry for that~ Matt didnt play w/us too much he was on the phone w/his momma! so Stacie, Nick, and I talked a lot! acted like crazy peeps! Then my sis picked me up! Thanxs yall for cheerin me up I needed all that! Thanxs for forcing me to go Stacie!

Well...today I did handbooks then went to the mall and ate w/Kara and Shaila! We looked around and walked to loose some of the weight I gained! Now i'm back home wondering about the letter Matt wrote me! People don't understand how hard it is to get over someone and to be able to trust someone else w/your heart! I need a break from all the drama a boyfriend brings...well sometimes I think I do other times I dont! Who knows?!? Be safe yall! Seniors at Cathedral we graduate on May 26!!!!!!!!!